Sunday, February 29, 2004
"crunch time!"
I have got to clean up my act! I'm running out of time!
I only have three weeks left!
Oh what the fuck!
It wouldn't be easy, shit if only I could turn back time.
Start from day one.
Sheesh that would be nice!
papers, papers, papers!
tests,tests,tests!
fuck,fuck,fuck!
I'm not cutting a single class this week.
I have to suck up!
I have to wear a halo.
Be in my best behavior!
kevon
7:51 PM
"The Case of The EX"
Hi Anna!
It has been what? Four years?
Yah, geez that long?
So how are you?
You never told me that you are also studying in UST. Accounting right? Uy! Same building!
I saw your photo when I was checking my friendster account. You've changed! You've changed a lot! You look like a woman already. Hehe, just kidding.
But honestly You've really changed. You're different from the Anna that I used to know. The "mataray" and "fearless" Anna that is never afriad to beat up the boys!
Now you've become a real demure woman! Pardon me for the term, but you look really HOT!
Remember when I used too suck up on your older sister because I had a crush on her? Hehe, you would get really mad and you won't talk to me for days. I heard she's already married.
I really miss you Anna, I really do...
We never really broke up right? Well at least not officially. But don't get me wrong. I know you're currently in a relationship. I hope you're happy.
Still if you need anything, I'll be around. I miss you...
kevon
2:02 PM
Thursday, February 26, 2004
Damn! I really feel like shit today!
I really feel sorry for Moe. I don't blame him if he thinks I betrayed him. Maybe I did.
If I considered myself as a real friend, I should have been honest with him.
Wrong move Kev!
But the thing is, I did love Tina. I just had to tell her.
I never asked her to feel the same way for me.
I chose not to tell Moe because I thought that he didn't have to know.
I have accepted the fact that whatever I do, I can't make Tina feel the same way for me as I feel for her.
She loves Moe! That is a fact. Tina told it to my face! I heard it from the horse's mouth, "so to speak".
Moe, dude you don't have anything to worry about, believe me, I just had to tell her,
I just had to let it out of my chest. That's why I needed to tell her.
Never in a million years will I stab you in the back! Never in my lifetime will I let anything get in the way of our friendship. You can ask Rica, you can ask Mina, A.K., they all know about this. You are my friend Moe.
I understand if you are still pissed, or if you want to whack me in the head for being so stupid!
kevon
1:43 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
HIT ME!
"Sometimes there is this guilt inside you that eats you up. And the only way to relieve you of that guilt is for someone to knock it out off your system."
Last night at Ken's house:
Kevin: ang tagal naman nila!
Rica: padating na yun!
Moe: Rica diba nagpalit kayo ng cel ni kev? peram naman.
(Moe picking up the phone from the ground)
Kevin: ahh nooooH!
The reason why I didn't want Moe to see my phone is because a bunch of tina's messages are saved in my archive. Okay I admit I had a thing for Tina. I really used to like Tina. Take note "used to" so actually there is nothing for Moe to be upset about.
There we were, the three of us in the room. An uncomfortable silence filled the room while Moe was reading the messages in my archive.
Rica: patay!
Kevin: kasi naman ang tagal ko nang gustong burahin yun eh!
After Moe had read all of tina's massages it seemed like nothing happened.
Moe: tara labas tayo.
So we went outside.
Rica: malayo ba yung store? bili na kaya tayo ng maiinom.
Moe and I volunteered to buy some beer.
Moe: tara bike tayo angkas ako!
Kevin: hindi ako marunong magpaangkas eh.
Moe: sige ikaw nalang ang umangkas.
Kevin: hindi rin ako marunong eh!
But actually I just pretended not to know how to do those stuff, I really needed to talk to Moe straight, man to man.
So we took the long walk to the liquor store. And I started the long talk.
Kevin: I know you're upset.
Moe: dude there is nothing to be upset about.
And the talk went on and on and on and on...
funny thing, Moe took it so well, maybe too well for me to believe him.
Kevin: dude I really feel like an ass!
Moe: dude no big deal!
Kevin: but I still feel like an ass!
Moe: how many times do I have to yell you that it is not your fault!
Though he kept on telling me that, I still wasn't convinced. And so I prooved that Moe is not your regular guy. He is a guy who thinks before he makes a move. A real rational dude. But the guilt was still in my chest. And the only way for me to be relieved of this guilt is for me to take a blow. I thought I deserved it!
Moe: its okay dude!
Kevin: no its not. I still feel like an ass! I know you're upset so if you want to hit me,go ahead!, I wont hit you back I promise.
Moe:are you crazy? I wont hit you!
We argued all night, about me trying to tell him that he should punch me, and him trying to tell me that he didn't have to.
But I'm not going to live the rest of my life with this guilt in my chest.
Kevin: dude go ahead!
Moe: I'm not gonna punch you dude!
Kevin: go punch!
Moe: no way!
Kevin: go!
Moe: no!
Kevin: I insist!
Moe: well if that is the case!
Kevin: finally!
BANG! I got one real strong one on my left shoulder. Blood rushed to my head. Areaway!
Its all good! I deserved it.
kevon
5:37 PM
Monday, February 23, 2004
weird day
Off I go to school, not ready, unprepared, as usual.
And just when I was about to reach school...
What the fuck!!!
RAIN! Big droplets of
RAIN! (gee that ruined my day)
First period,
Quiz! Second period,
Quiz again! (fuck,fuck,fuck)
And just when I thought that this day couldn't get any worse,
RAIN AGAIN!
So much for that. What made this day weird? Besides the surprise rain shower, Moe was acting really weird.
No beer for Moe today.
What!
He visited the library.
What!
No cigarettes for Moe today.
What!
Nope, wait he did smoke today.
anyway,
Dude what the hell's wrong with you?
He told us it has something to do with the weather.
Well, come to think of it, maybe it did have something to do with the weather.
(gloomy weather=gloomy mood)
kevon
10:04 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2004
sunday blues
I woke up this morning and everybody was gone!
then it hit me,
oh!, yah!, its Sunday...
So I took a bath, dressed up, ate my breakfast, then I went to church.
And now I'm here, inside a computer shop. For some weird reason, I can't enter the church building. Its like some sort of force is preventing me to go to church.
I'm not going to force my self, I'm not going to waste my time either. And so here I am.
I don't think something is wrong with me, and I don't think that what I'm doing is a sin.
I don't think God's gonna' strike me with a bolt of lightning or anything...
nah! I don't deserve that sort of punishment for not going to church...
I'm sure the Lord understands that we all need our timeouts... Don't you think?
kevon
3:30 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2004
oh yah!
Finally! The bully issue is fixed, AB elections done, and I am now completely sober...
I just got up, weird, no hang over!
I say it like its a bad thing...
Funny story,
yesterday, I was all alone, Moe was not around, Rica went home to change, cap went home early.
But just not to break the tradition, I went to D'fort to get my daily dose of alcohol.
And so there I was drinking my beer, all by myself
(give me an "L" for loser!).
I'm not going to tell every detail. But to cut the long story short, I started with a bottle of beer all alone, and I ended up with 5 bottles of gin, a bunch of strangers infront of me,
and I can remember making out with a girl that I just met.
Hah!
I guess that doesn't make a loser after all...
I'm taking that "L" back...
kevon
4:00 PM
Friday, February 20, 2004
FUCK THAT BULLY!!!
I can't write, I can't type! Shit I'm suppose to talk to this dude in school who has been bullying me around since this Monday. But I have to face my fears. Shit why do I have to do this!!! I thought there were no bullies in colledge but noooooooo! Shit! And I'm suppose to talk to this guy with Moe but noooooo!, he has to perform his duties as an older brother. nah! I'm not mad, I understand why he has to do stuff like that. goodluck man! So here I am, left with this big question in my head. Why can't we all just get along???
kevon
12:38 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2004
"first time"
my first time to post somthing here... today the day after the international day of heartache. can't wait to go to school, not to study but to join my bud moe in a drinking fest!!!
kevon
5:40 PM
